I need a pair of good listening ears, anyone?

I prayed to God this morning. It has been a long time(really long) since I last prayed to Almighty. I felt shameful on myself because I only turned to Him when I felt lost, desperate and helpless.

I have tried to apply for universities in California and I don't have much confident in getting admitted, somehow. I have tried to gain confidence by asking questions in Yahoo Answers and hope I can see sucessful cases akin to mine in a Forum.

I really wanna get into one of the schools that I have applied. I wanna fufill my dreams- being able to study in US and being able to be a Veterinarian. I know it's quite impossible because of the GPA I have. I am all to blame, for not studying well during High School. Being able to admit in NYP is a miracle for me. I felt God made it happened and He gave me another chance to study.

Perhaps, He wants me to be an Engineer?

I have ruined the chance again, I should have studied hard in NYP, achieved a pretty good result like my eldest sister's. Maybe I will have a better chance being accepted and I won't be here feeling helpess and all.

Will God gives me another chance again? Is it too much of a plea? Do I deserve one last chance from Him? I heard Him- He told me He will make miracle happens, and to have faith. Is the voice inside belongs to Him or am I deceiving myself?

Who can give me an answer?

I will be back, one day.
Unsure.
Wait for me.